You've probably read in some of my Instagram posts that I will be blogging about that, reviewing this yadda yadda yadda. But still ended up with nothing. I can't think of a better excuse as to why I am not blogging other than the truth which is, I am demotivated and yes a little bit lazy. Hehe.
You see, since I went back to work in 2017, I also started slacking off in terms of blogging. I stopped blogging unless it was for a project. And then, there came a time when I wasn't able to fulfill some responsibilities. I tried squeezing in a few hours of my free time to attend events but eventually stopped. Juggling work and the many hats I wear as a mom was already a little too much for me.
2018 came, I had to quit my job. I came back to being a stay at home mom again, no helper no yaya. Despite not being active on my website, I was, on Instagram. I somehow missed blogging, but it was not the same way as before. There were several event invites, to which I can't attend at all given our setup. There were no blog opportunities. Being away in the blogging scene for quite some time made me feel like I'm starting from scratch again. Truth be told, it demotivated me. I pressured myself to catch up with everyone else, to become relevant. I even thought of quitting.
It took a while before I finally realized why I started blogging in the first place. And that changed everything.
I blogged to tell our story, to share our experiences, it's having something to look back to in the future. I blogged because it was cathartic and hopefully be able to relate to other mommies out there, earning from it was just a bonus.
So I continued blogging for myself. However, being a full-time-mom was too taxing. I don't get to use the computer anymore which means, no blog posts. Also, I partly blame Netflix! Haha! So yes, I am mostly on my phone during my free time so I just make up for it by being active on social media especially on Instagram. My feed isn't curated at all, I post anything I like, I post about the kids, our family.
Somehow, my presence in social media landed me some projects. I'd be lying if I tell you it doesn't make me happy. Why wouldn't I be happy when I get to do something I love and find out that there are still people who believe in me and trust in my capabilities, right?
I have had this blog for 6 years in total (I just changed the name 3 times) and I would like to commit more to it. But also, reminding myself to not take it too seriously and always remember my reason for blogging. No pressure, no competition just purely working for passion.
So in the next few days, I will be writing about all the things that I've been meaning to write about in the past few months even years. That’s a lot! Haha. This is definitely a challenge for me since given that my hands are full, literally and figuratively. But I’d gladly take the challenge!
Good luck to me! ❤